So for some reason unknown to me, I have been on a blog roll, just typing my little heart away this week. Some of the entries reflect how I felt for the past week and so are in no particular order. Some of the entries seem to be of like a tale of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde on certain topics; that was because one day I was literally feeling like Dr. Jekyll and a couple days later back to my Mr. Hyde self. I have been leery about really telling all my friends about being starting a blog or actually putting the live link on said facebook page. I know that some of the stories I write in here, I write with an air of deliberateness, in which I disclose the gist of stories or people of question because for strangers out there that may come across this blog don’t really know what I am talking about but the people who really do know me would exactly know what I was talking about. I have already concerns of this, especially in a couple of blogs already I wrote during Valentine’s Day weekend and the revelation that some of my guy friends who reads this will more than likely figure out who I was talking about. I know it’s a risk to take and a real dicey gamble, but at this point in my life, I could really care less because I feel have to get certain things off my chest that is of personal interest to me because for too long, this recent shell of me (post freshman year) has not been as vocal as expressing the way I feel about people, about situations, about revelations for fear that I just don’t want to hear the drama or the rejection. I am so used to rejection and negativity (basis for my young life thus far) that it has molded me in some ways as a cynical, occasionally bitter and unhappy person at times. Now this is not to say that is who I am all the time, but it is partly who I am some of the time. And I feel that until I get into a new situation in my life and start a new chapter of my life (post school) will I feel the page somewhat turning. But until then, que sera, sera.
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