Stubborn McGEE:

I am a very stubborn person, period. The heater could break down, my pen dries up, my computer goes out and the window in my office could break and let in wonderful rain and cold biting winds, but I tell you I wouldn’t leave until I finished a homework assignment. I used to think my stubbornness was really a measure of my never die and never quit attitude but I come to realize I was probably just being dumb back in my heyday. And the thing about it is, I rather do things the hard way and my way than change them up or try something different, or at least not right away. Oh well, when will I learn? Beats me but I learned a long time ago that things will never come easy for me, whether its school, life, finances, whatever. And I think this attitude that I have has let me enjoy knowing that I have to work for every single thing that I want for my life and not altering the path that I am trying to use to get there. I had a good talk last night with a good of friend of mine’s as I was telling him how I really felt about being in grad school where I am right now. Its been no secret with good friends of mine’s that I have for the most part very unhappy here since school started. Now I guess most people would quit or give up but see, I just plain refused to, no matter how much I complain, how bitter I become, how angry I can get or how frustrated I can become, its just not in my blood, not in my soul and not in my psyche. Of course depending on what I want to do with my life, I might have to go back to the drawing board but hey, the lofty goals I set for myself got to get achieved somehow. And it means that after I get my first master’s, I have to goto an entirely different school, retake some of the classes I have taken here to get a 2nd master’s in what I really want to do, then so be it. I have not come all the way, this far, to be deterred and not encouraged to go after the dreams I want. So see, I suppose me being a stubborn McGee really can come in handy. Especially to help me to get through the rest of my time here.c